I'm holding my cup in an attempt to capture some warmth.
My thoughts jumped from one conversation to the next, trying to collect as much memory as possible to make sense of the feelings I'm feeling now.
I'm trying to ask the right questions, that's the process right? Know the right questions to put you in a better, more well thought of path.
Well here it is:
Where do I want to be a year from now?
Middle East.
What will you be doing?
Documenting, photographing, surviving, and making sure my documents are surviving. Making my life matter.
What will it take to get there?
Learn the language, Arabic.
Physically and mentally prepare.
Be funded.
What will it take to have those?
Work on my portfolio and submit to a media.
Portfolio
Credible photos (Events, studio, portraits, motion)
Website
Photoblog
Work for the media
Start learning Arabic now.
Read, write, practice, converse, surround myself with the language.
Read every inspirational, current and past, photographer and person that's been there and survived.
Why?
Because what are we all here for? For each other.
And someone needs to take responsibility of showing someone else of a world they don't know, to open other's eyes and hearts, and if not leading the way, but get you thinking of a different possibility.
Because the wars need to stop, and anger needs to change into understanding.
Because there are no borders, no matter how thick we build physical barriers, there are no borders in life and people.
Because drugs are not always the solution to anyone's problem and should never be taken advantage of by the people that knows its control.
Because there are endless better possibilities than what we're currently living now.
Because we still have each other and we can't just abort the human soul.
My photograph will be part of history. Because I understand that its happening right now and my eyes are no longer covered by rose colored glasses. My mind isn't clouded by what they want which is to just keep us moving on a day to day mundane life so we can 'make a living.' Living happens, we don't have to make it happen. My heart has been ripped and wasted on selfish things, and its time to stand by it and do good for a change.
[this excerpt has been retrieved from my personal day to day blog www.plnmsjane.blogspot.com]
